I thought about it
I thought about it and there is only one way to realize the value of your dreams. To see them through no matter how painful that can be. Where you can take yourself is a matter of when and what you’re willing to do. How far are you willing to step out of your comfort zone? Our comfort zones are relative to how we relate to life. How we adjust and conform.
Sometimes I wonder what it is I need to do to make it work. I know the answers are all there. Sometimes I think I’m too afraid to see the actual reality of my life. I have such a specific reason to be here and I need to hear the voices. I need to remember the answers. They’re there, right in front of my eyes.
I’m a talented, amazingly beautiful woman who isn’t afraid to speak her mind. Who’s not afraid to see the truth for what it is and who needs to move into her true being. I see a girl crying because she so desperately wants to and doesn’t know the path. I see a girl standing on a road that she has been on all her life. She just didn’t know it. Where it leads only she will tell. The outcome is up to her if only she has the courage to take the steps.
Why at times do I feel the need to find such a huge comfort zone. I search for help, I yearn for the past, I anguish over lost feelings. I am so angry right now. I can’t seem to let go. I’m afraid to move forward. I see things well and know where this will eventually take me. I regress to a place I don’t want to be. I know I shouldn’t be here. I know where I need to be and the path I need to take to get there. So why is it so hard right now? I think some is the chemicals running through my body. I need to remember to focus and relax. I need to be comfortable in my life before I can be with anyone. I need to be strong in who I am before I can feel the love of another.
Of what is it we are all looking for?